Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I've Been Struggling

So, I've been considering taking the blog down. I started it as way of expressing myself and posting my writing and my thoughts. I was hoping for feedback on my writing since I don't share it with many people and hardly any of my family and friends. It's interesting how a blog can take on a life of its own if you let it evolve naturally. I subscribe as a follower to a great many other blogs and some of them have many comments and others, like mine, very few. I found myself getting jealous of the bloggers who had followers who email them and make comments on a regular basis. I guess I started to want that and it never seemed to materialize. I have few friends these days and have been isolated from the few who have remained. So, I decided after getting a comment from an anonymous reader that I will continue to focus on my writing and put it out there for what it's worth. I write because I love it and it helps me stay sane. It is also a way to delve into my shadow shine a light on the darker elements of my soul. I am always reminded that Vincent Van Gogh never sold a painting during his lifetime. He is the one artist I seem to indentify with the most. I love his art and I love his story. I cry everytime I hear "Starry, Starry Night". I guess I'm attracted to the tragic side of life.




7 comments:

Rex in Ohio said...

Been checking your blog almost daily since I found it. Hope you keep it up.

miracleman said...

Rex,
Thank you for your support. It's good to know you're out there. I'm going to keep it up.

Cheers,
Robert

Anonymous said...

It isn't who responds, it is who keeps watching. I have a blogs for my businesses and rarely get comments. But my counter shows me they are watching.

Do it for you, and the rest will follow.

I also check it daily.

JoeBlow said...

I hope you do continue to keep up your blog. I get it in my google reader and read it everyday. I have just been very busy this week and therefore very behind in my reading. I don't always comment on other blogs like I should, but I will certainly be more vigilant at making comments (just allow me some time to catch up, LOL). I always appreciate your comments on my blog, and I know how much it means to many of us bloggers to get comments. Keep up the good work. You have readers out there.

miracleman said...

Thanks for the support guys. I knew you were looking, I guess like most artists I'm an insecure little whiner. I've been getting some great emails and I really appreciate the help and supportive comments. Joe, thanks for your comments.

jaysonstreet said...

I confess to having not read much of your blog, but today noted many viewers of mine have come over from yours. I see now some real similarities in our shared interest in the craft of writing, and in your interest int he arts, as well as our location in the same region. And you seem to have been blogging since 2005- kudos for keeping it up. This is your work, your journal, your outpouring of your soul, do not consider the lack of commenters or viewers as the only measure of your worth.

I can relate to thinking like that, days or weeks of little feedback can make you wonder why do this, but then I realize I need to do this for myself. This is important to you, so keep it up as long as it fulfills you. We may be in different life and partnership and maybe even in orientation places, (although we seem to have the same love of the beauty of men and desire for their bodies), but I see your attempt to use the blog creatively and searchingly at least in the few posts I have read enough to know, we do have something in common.

Keep at it, your writing is rich, and your picture selections are quite fine too.

miracleman said...

Jason,
Thank you for your comments. I love your writing, so your comments are greatly appreciated. Yes, we have some things in common. I have been divorced now for as long as I was married and also had a long time male lover through the relationship. When my wife and I broke up, it was over other issues, but the bottom line was that I could not be there 100% in body and mind. I knew and she knew it. I told her about my leanings in the early part of the marriage, so coming out to her was not an issue. It is a slippery slope and I hope you navigate it with grace. Good luck to you.